Life After Our Losses

The past few months have really been a struggle. We're both just trying to keep busy and cope. We wanted to thanks all those who prayed for us and we ask you to continue keeping our family in your prayers. Also a big thanks to those who donated some money to help out with hospital bills and memorial service costs. (The Peter and Macie Johnson Memorial Fund at Wells Fargo if you would like to help too). Also thank you to those who came to the memorial service.

Many want to know what happened and all I would like to say addressing that is the night of October 7th I went into premature labor and delivered my sweet babies the next day. They were not strong enough to survive. I don't like to call is a miscarriage or a stillbirth because deep down I know they lived for a few seconds each. Chris and I watched Peter's heart beat and we also wittnessed Macie struggle to breath. We got to hold them for a few hours and I was released from the hospital the next morning. Healing afterwords was a struggle and frustrating because of the doctors I had. I was hospitalized 2 weeks later due to a missed infection. Healing emotionally is another thing I struggle with. I think about them and miss them every single moment. I can't wait until I get to raise my perfect children in Heaven.

Chris and I returned to school 2 weeks after everything and we were able to finish up the semester. I'm so thankful for all of our professors that helped us.

Right now we're both just working hard, looking for a new car, and getting ready for another semester of school.


Oh I almost forgot! We bought a puppy and named him Toby, he was also born on October 8th, so we have our hands full trying to train and entertain him.

Maybe another day I'll post pictures of our Christmas, but right now I said everything I needed and wanted to be said. Many people ask if there is anything they can do and other than prayers the only thing I can say is don't forget those special babies that don't get to go home with their parents. It's always comforting to Chris and I knowing that our children touched others lives and are not forgotten about. Also, don't stress over the little things, and never complain or take for granted a moment with your own children.